This word is has a powerful meaning behind it. Doing all the fundraising has made me learn a lot of hard truths about myself that I will have to face and has taught me that how the gospel is needed so much out side my own box. To be selfless and humble. You guys this is not easy. Everyday I think maybe I can push it back one more year then I would be ready. And when I think of this I get the instant conviction of no why are you wanting to push back the time is NOW!!
I honestly been holding back a lot of feelings and really thinking about what is more important that will make me stay because family, friends and pet is it more important. I have just looked to this thought and wondered if Jesus said “Jesus said to him, “Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and preach the kingdom of God” (Luke 9:60)
I shed so many tears on many and have learned that you maybe alone but GOD is there and that my impossible are GOD’s possible. That I have to simple let go! Ha soo easy right wrong. but he is sooo faithful and loves you mean this world. So yes I am sad that I will get to miss every thing with you guys and being Alone is a lie! I am sad that I will miss the laughs and cries and small bIG NEWS!! THAT YOU would like to share BUT I am also excited on what GOD has for me!!
I only ask one thing is that you pray for me to be bold to yeild to GOD’S WILL and for my team mates.
Shayla, thank you for honestly pouring out your heart in this way! You are most definitely not alone! And not just with the Lord, but those alongside you, those who have gone before, and those who will come after. The what-is and the unknowns, the feelings of inadequacy, and the pull to the familiar. You aren’t the first and won’t be the last to feel these things, so do not let the enemy isolate you. You are powerful and strong! You are capable of much more than you could ever think or imagine because our God is that bring! Praying for strength and confidence in this season for you my sister! Blessings!
-Samantha (WR K Squad 2021)